blind

i'm holding

all these broken pieces

twisted, charred and

splintered pieces

in my hands

my grasp

is slipping

we both keep tripping

on hearts too big

too full

for our straight thinking

anon

this tiny little death

this anonymous soul

i can almost welcome the pain

just to help you escape the wrath of the world

mother

one day i'll do it
maybe never
maybe soon
tell you all the things to make you whole
those things i took away
to give you the whole wide world
you're that piece of me that breathes for me
and i die daily
eternal asphyxiation
enduring annihilation
of me
so you
can breathe
the want in me, i let it starve
in hopes you'll gorge on life
the exceptional beauty of every second of you
i kept from me so you might see
it all in you
you're the best of me, all that's left of me
and if my dying lets you live
you live for me

chase

i paint my face for you
i'm trimmed in lace for you
i'm the pot of gold
that'll never get old
each day, i'll be a new chase for you
but chase
don't waste
my time
i'm a runner
i'm a wanderer
i'm a gypsy
i'm a sprite
but for you
i'll be your daily chase
but chase
i paint my face for you
i'm trimmed in lace for you
i'm the pot of gold
that'll never get old
but chase
i run
but i'll run for you
just chase
me
when you catch me, release me
let me fly
it's my night
it's my sky
but if you'll chase
each day, i'll be a new chase for you

alice sin

you have not because you ask not
but i have because i take
you
i paint my walls with you
before i ask
i fill my mind with you
before i ask
you dance for me
because i say
you will
you muse
my fuse
my liquid om
i drink you now
you take me home
and let me fly
before i die
then kill me once again

star sister

where are you, sister
those bits of you,
that scattered, shattered oneness
those soul splinters
that truth
that ruthless love
that drove me to myself
that rode me to my wealth
that stripped me of my mind
replaced my brash with stealth
of truth of time of wild so quiet she whispers
the wail of infinite drifters
all seeking
that you inside them all
where are you, sister

spore

i'll love you like a curse until the day i don't and even then you'll feel it
creeping up your throat when you have a mind to smile
crushing through your chest when you're rounding your last mile
and i'll grow through every vein like a seed
you'll see my eyes you'll see my face every time you feel that need
to hold to chase to live to breathe
i'll infest every cell with rapid viral speed
you'll feel my hands you'll feel my touch every time you feel that need
to go to run to fuck to breed
i'll warn you now, but still i'll love you like a sunburn like a brainfreeze
i'll love you like a curse until the day i don't and even then you'll feel it
you'll feel it 'til you won't and then you will

again

and again and again and again

creeping up your throat to choke out every smile
crushing through your chest while you push through your last mile
and i'll grow through every vein like a seed
you'll see my eyes in every face while you fight the need
to hold to chase to live to breathe
you'll feel my hands in every touch each time you know that need
to go to run to fuck to breed

healer's curse

i pour my love into cracks too big to hold it
that heart of yours that still is hers
my words can't begin to describe it
but i try and i try
and each day a little more of me dies
that hope once blooming is now decaying
into a cancer so black and twisted
that even to the worst i couldn't wish it
so i patch it and i stitch it
with pieces of mine into a quilt
that will always beat in time with mine
it pulses it writhes it's bloody like mine
and still
i pour my love into cracks to big to hold it
you're healing and you don't even know it
but you will
and next time
when you try
you'll feel it - more deeply than any tear
more jagged than the claws of her snare
you'll feel it
that heart you have is whole
but the patches
the stitches
they're mine
you're whole, and you still don't know it
but you will
and the next time you try
that unnatural flutter, that quickening of excitement,
that love of divine,
that's mine